New phone model. Cool. 

My new phone. Nice eh? 

Today, i received a card from her. Well, she wwrote nothing else. Just happy birthday. And i sms-ed her to tell her tq. She replied late and, of course, she explained why she replied late and so on. Iwas going to reply"it's none of my business even if you don't reply."when someone called me. Am i really bad or what?
I just don't know. Whenever i look at that particular guy, i feel like loathing him. But it was not his fault, neither was hers. What if i had just kept her back? Tell her how much i like her. That'd be a waste of time and energy. Hahaha.

You make me cry
On such a starry night
I don’t think so that I’ll deny
That I love you so
I just don’t know why
Am I really falling for you?
If love is all the things I had
Moments back I lost it all
I cried but did not try
To keep you back
From walking off the deck
Is this really true
Am I really falling for you?

The proper using of Fuck.

Happy - I'm fucking high.
Dismay - Oh, Fuck it.
Aggression- Fuck you!
Passive- Fuck me.
Command- Go fuck yourself.
Incompetence-He's a fuck up.
Laziness-He's a fuck off
Ignorance-He's a fucking jerk.
Trouble-I guess I am fucked now.
Confusion-What the fuck?
Despair-Fucked again.
Philosophical-Who gives a fuck?
Denial-You ain't fuckin' me.
Rebellion-Fuck the world.
Annoyance-Don't fuck with me.
Encouragement-Keep on fucking.
Etiquette-Pass the fuckin' salt.
Fraud-I just got fucked by my insurance agent.
Organized crime-What the fuck you looking at?
Identification-What the fuck are you?
Ugliness-You're a dumb looking fuck.
Agreement-Mother fucker!
Benevolence-Don't do me any fuckin' favors.

There, just in front of the computer, sat a boy. He's sad. He's depressed. He's thinkng. He's wondering and he's recollecting his history. I am introducing him to you now. He was destined to become a failure by the age of 13. On the day he was born 14 years past, there, a couple looked into theirooffspring's eyes. He was everything to them. They could give up anything for him. Well, years passed, he's grown into his primary years. His parents received complaints from all his teachers, no doubt he was being the cheeky one in his classes. He attended tuitions. His mother appointed tutors for him. She wanted him to be a learnt man. He had childhood memories. There was always time for him to relax. He took chances of being lazy. He came to know his best friend two years before graduation. He made his parents proud of him finally when he graduated from his primary school by proving the tuition he attended was worth it.
He took his first step into his second level education soon. His destiny started to fullfill. He was always not concentrating in classes. Naps, he took in the boring classes, that's what he says. Soon, he came upon a girl through his friend. She studied in the same class as him. She was always the best one, like his best friend. Instead, he was the other opposite to both of them. He was in love with the girl not long later. He scored failure. His best friend and his loved one was now a class ahead of him. He blended with his new friend he met in the second year well. He proved himself to be a cheeky boy. Finally, the results were out after the finals. He has once again, proved his destiny as a failure. Unknown to him, the girl who he cared so much for turned him down when he was trying to date her out. And he got stunned. That night, he was dumbfounded. He gave up. And on a fine morning on 26th of october, there he sat, typing out what he was.

Now i am happy to have my blog back to post. Nah. She wun even think that i decided to have this one back.
Let her figure out my new one. HAHAHA.

Boring. Disappointed. Sad. Depressed. Left out.
Stupid people.
Worthless people.
Shit 'em.

Today, i went for movies. With two boys and two girls. Saw lots and lots of nice things. Feel like buyin 'em down. But what for? Aih. Just couldn't figure out what's in me. What's me made of. I just like ended our frienship with her abruptly. Acting like if i was cool. Shit me ownself. Dunno if i hurt her much. Shouldn't care. Won't care. Who cares? Maybe being bad makes me feel better about it. Yeah. Love Sucks!

愛讓我疲乏。哈哈，我很累哦。曉嘉，你別傻了。我是真的沒事。我很樂觀的哦！！哈哈。你這樣看我的blog，我只好申請一個新的。唉。

或許我還很盼望她能回心轉意，也不知到為什麼，聽到她如此的高興，我似乎有點妒嫉。或許我真的是喜歡她吧，算了，提起她，我心頭就一陣酸。傷心事呀。別提了。打算25號去看戲。約了許多朋友。可惜我跟她已斷，我們連第一次約會都沒有，就斷了。唉。算了吧，就這樣忘掉她。呵呵，我還小，不用怕的哦。哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈。

唉,我今天亦輕鬆,又有少許的悲哀。她放棄了我，沒辦法，反正也不能怪她。哈哈，算了吧，我早已料到有今天。我又不是玉樹臨風，唉，緣分已盡。我那死豬腦朋友，還一直害她討厭我。他媽的。我現在也自在了，耍風流，或看看戲，約女生，快活快活！！！

Well. i really am getting fed-up with everything. just like i am always the failure. Aih. Just failure.